~MoO MoO~: Haiz...

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Haiz... sometimes i find her really adorable but sometimes, i really cannot help it but wanna kill her. She did 17 slides for juz her part!!! Can she please stop it? This is the second presentation already... And we already told her last time that we only have 30 mins. Seriously, you don't have enuff time for so many slides... Why can't she get it? I'm the one compiling and i'm seriously damn pek chek now. I really wanna cut the number of slides she has but i can't do that cos i dunno how it will affect her. She's gotta start understanding that by talking more, prof won't give her more marks... Okok... i dunno about this prof, he has been very irritatingly ambiguous about what he expects. But then the project presentation should really be about quality. You should summarize it!!! No one in the class wants to hear you talk 15 min about something they are not interested in. Leave more time for Q and A. That's the time u interact with the class and show them how much u know about your case. Haiz... whatever. I bet tmr's rehearsal time will be spent on letting her shorten her speech and cut down on slides.
Haiz... another thing i wanna whine about. My thumb got this tiny little cut and it's swollen... So pain. =( But sadly, there's no one i can whine to about such small things. Can u imagine me calling a fren and start whining about such tiny things? Haiz... it's times like these that makes me wish that i'm back with LT somehow... Well, he has his uses u know? Nono, WZ, not just sex, entertainment and physical labour. He can make me not wanna complain about such small things because half the time he ain't listening. He is also really good at making me work hard. This term, i'm slacking like my dad's gonna be able to help me BUY a degree... It's terrible ain't it? I figure that i will be getting pretty lousy grades this term. When i think about how slack i've become, i start wondering if it's actually better that i don't get over him? Oh well, i will think more... I will be more depressed but that keeps my brain working!!! I think that will make me less of an airhead then.
Why airhead and not bimbo u might wonder... Oh... that's easy to answer. Cos i'm not even pretty enough to qualify as a bimbo. A friend asked me the other day: "Yishan, do u ever feel inferior?" My answer? Definitely. In fact, i feel that pretty often. Just that i dun really show it. I always wonder why some of my friends look so good, feel so confident, are so smart, so popular. I know that i myself is not too shabby. I get my fair share of attention, brains and confidence. But why can't i have more? Haiz...i guess that's the thing about human beings... we cant never truly be satisfied with what we have.

YYY